Why are we SO SINFUL?????

Song of the day: No song. I am in so emotionally distressed that a song is the last thing on my mind.

WHY??? How can we become so dark and hardened as an entire population?

Okay, let me back up a little. Let me walk you down the events that occurred prior to my statement above. I was browsing through Facebook, checking up on the happenings of today, when I stumbled upon a post that my friend put up on her page about a child being run over in China. I watched it and completely sat there in absolute horror and disbelief as to what my eyes were seeing. After it was done, I just broke down and sobbed so hard. I hugged Nathan and sobbed for a few minutes before collecting myself a bit. Then, I felt enraged. How can human beings watch other human beings, especially a helpless child, brutally hurt and not care??? I just don't understand. I know that we are sinners. I know that we are naturally evil and selfish...but, really? Heartless.

I can't sleep right now because I keep thinking of that footage over and over again in my head. I tear up every time. I fed Alana her midnight feeding and held her a little longer while I tried to burp her. I started crying just thinking of someone running over her like that, with no regards to the gift that she is to her parents and the people that love her. I held her a bit longer and tighter than I usually do. Then, I went to go in to take Kaia for her midnight potty trip. As she dug her hands into my chest to keep warm while snuggling her head into my shoulder I felt myself almost losing it because that girl that got run over was just about Kaia's age.

I just can't understand such blatant sin. Yes, we are all sinners. Yes, sin is sin is sin...but...a lot of our sins are beneath the surface. No one can really see them. Seeing someone casually just run over a child, stop for a second because he may have an ounce of humanity in him, but then decide to proceed and run over the girl again and leave the scene as if he just ran over a bird...I just can't make any sense of it. It's moments like this when I wonder why God even deals with us. I wonder why He even gives us any blessings at all. I wonder why He doesn't just blast us off the face of this earth. I really wonder. We have no standards. Everyone makes up their own rules. We are so sucked into our own life and not connecting with people besides through Facebook, emails, text messages, and whatnot that we are starting to become heartless. We have no compassion or sympathy for other human beings. It's so scary to know that this happens all around the world. It's so normal that no one stopped to help the little girl. 18 people walked by and not ONE stopped to do something. HOW!?!?!?!?!!!!! How does one get so hardened that you can walk by a little girl that hasn't even begun to live her life, crushed and bleeding, probably wailing in pain, and act as if it doesn't affect you. HOW? HOW? HOW???!?!?!?!?! I am just so insanely disturbed and angry.

Update: The little girl was in a coma this past week and was announced dead the other day. Breaks my heart...I pray that she's in a better place, away from all the ugliness of this world.